Hi, I’m Michelle, a cisgender lesbian woman following Jesus in proclaiming the good news of the kingdom. “For I am not ashamed of the gospel; it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who has faith” (Romans 1:16).
Since I was 15, I’ve been shaped by the story of Jesus. At times, the “biblical” narrative I believed to be true had lost the plot. However, I pressed on; I have spent my life asking, “Who is this Jesus” and “What is this salvation he brings?” Deep down, even in the “certainty” of my teenage fundamentalist Evangelical faith, I’ve always known there was something else, something better. All the small stories I encountered that were preached and practiced did not seem true enough.
I spent over 15 years trying to live those not-true-enough stories. Doing so required I abandon pieces of myself, most especially my sexuality. To be good, to be right, to be faithful, to be saved – I had to not be gay. So I tried not to be gay. That is, until my early 30s when I finally admitted that I was barely surviving the wounds of all the parts of me I cut off, kept numb and starved. A wise friend encouraged me to wrestle with my sexuality and theology more honestly than I ever had before. For two years I studied, prayed, worked with a therapist, met with my pastor, and processed with trusted friends. In 2013, for the first time, I reconciled my faith and sexuality. All the pieces of me came together – integrated. With that wholeness, also for the first time, came peace.
I’m learning to tell a truer story, and this is the place I’m sharing the words I’m finding for that story as I discover them. Most of what you’ll find here is focused on LGBTQ inclusion in Christian spaces, because this is the work my life’s story points to and says, “This leads to salvation.”
Currently I am working on a book project and beginning a freelance career teaching, speaking, developing resources and other projects related to LGBTQ inclusion in Christian spaces. If I can be of service to you, your church or small group, or someone you know, please contact me.